Sunday, September 16, 2007

Fuuhh....

I sit here on my bed supposedly going to talk to MY FAMILY on skype but somehow Streamyx just wouldn't allow it. Am also suppose to help the other 'family' to prepare some stuffs for tonight at the MarketPlace (it's a church). Haha. But i guess i shall just do what i enjoy doing sometimes, sharing with YOU my life for the past week. To the FAMILY who was supposed to be on Skype, this is how i looked like if you were online too
*actually, i just discovered that my web cam can take pictures, so just needed a reason to play around with it. haha

Let me see, where can i start..

The 11th of September will always be a date dear to me; not only because of what happened when the 2 towers came down but also because 'one of my own towers came down too.'
I celebrated my first year living without an Anterior Cruciate Ligament by suffering from more knee pains. Nowadays, i have to wear knee guards on both knees. I still do not see the reason behind this pain but as much as i've known already, i've become more prayerful. You see, simple things like walking can be a pain for me now, so much so that most of the time, even when i walk, i pray and ask Him to take the pain from me.
"If You are willing, please take this pain from me. "

It's not because it's some excruciating pain but it's more like frustration, the pain's bearable, the frustration isn't. Sigh, i just can't help but wonder when will all this end.
I thank God for understanding friends. And may i say PATIENT TOO!! haha. I realise i can become quite a pain at times, and they have been so patient with me. Thank You. *yawns*
Feel like sleeping suddenly. I had such a busy week this week, it's like the busiest i've ever had. It's funny because i often pray and ask Him for things to do and when things come, i say, 'it's too much!'. Am i wiser than Him that i should know what i need?

He's our Creator and of course, He knows best but yet we struggle for control over our own lives.

*double yawns*starts drooling over the keyboard*

I played the guitar for the first time in a meeting last Friday during OCF. IT WAS SUCH A MINDBLOWING EXPERIENCE. I almost broke down in the middle but had no where to turn to, just had to toughen up and act macho. Reason being, i felt i did not take it seriously. I never knew playing the guitar can help people to worship. Or rather i knew already but have never experienced it myself. When i saw everyone just worshipping, i was like...WOW....i can't wait to get to heaven.

God, you are amazing.

Funny, i started typing this post out a couple minutes ago feeling all depressed about my knee and now I just stand in excitement of who God is. I wish i could be more of the latter. Hmmm...

I'm clinging on to my 'crutch'.

1 comment:

Lil' Blue Bear said...

We all wonder sometimes. I know I do, but there's a reason for it all.
Psalms 124v8