What a 'lonely' day

I started the day with an interesting morning and im ending it with a somewhat subdued evening. LOL. Or i may be just be speaking too soon. Who knows how He works.

I think the number of audible words i said today can be count with my fingers and toes.

:P

But of course, my mind was 'on fire.'

ps. note to self, be careful when sending mms'. haha. cf Jez, James, or Twin sister.

What a morning!

Just a short one, I woke up today with the determination to complete one of the modules for the upcoming exams but i found myself being consumed by the past. Doubts came into my mind..."are You for real?" Struggle i did, i felt like i was literally wrestling with myself. Decided to just lie down on the bed for awhile and concentrate on Him Above and just rest. (i've been getting up every morning feeling tired)

I was just suddenly compelled to read some of the letters i have received from home.

man, i miss home so badly; not only the place or the environment, but the people. The people that i grew up with, fought with, cried with, throw-chewing-gum-into-her-hair with, going-to-college with, played-yoyo with, served with, prayed with, cycle with, eat with, go-toilet with, played-badminton with, fell-into-the-drain with, played football with, wash-pond with, fart with, burped with, cut hair with, look-at-ourselves-in-the-mirror with, took the Communion with, sang with, played guitar with, tried to study for SPM and ended up watching Princess Monokeke with Domino's with, got sun-burned with, snored with; the list is endless.


I always thank God for people to do life together. Thats You!!..hehee

I am reminded of who i am and my purpose here.


His child.


I thank God so much also for the people around me NOW. I just can't wait to see how all this is going to fit into HIS plans. WOW!!!!!

Last post for the next 3 weeks

Alright.

Time to pull my pants up, tighten my belt and tie my shoelaces.

Gotta read all those at least once. Not to mention textbooks and references. Ish ish.

Starting also to rely on 'drugs' to stay awake.
And also English earl grey tea. Its very refreshing. hehe

Had the privilege of having a 23 hours day last Saturday. It felt odd. Didn't get enough sleep on Saturday night. Haha. It's interesting to see how we can just change time like that. Daylight Saving Time has ended. So yea, we're 2.5 hours ahead from home now.

Thats the view from my window at 7pm yesterday. So funny to eat dinner when the sun is still shining so brightly. Alrighty....

Nov 2 Counselling test, will be quarantined from 2.55 pm to 5.10pm. Hopefully, i'll be one of the first few so would not have to stay there for so long.

Nov 12 Pharmacology 301 9am-12pm

Nov 13 Molecular and Chemical Basis of Therapeutics 301 2pm-4pm

Nov 15 Applied Pharmacotherapeutics 301 9am-12pm

Nov 19 English Summary test 12pm

Study hard, pray harder. Let's take it to the next level. Thank You for praying with me.

:)

Hebrews 11:6 But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.

I LOVE THE SMELL OF THE RAIN

I'm in love. Rain. Rain. Rain. Rain. Rain. Oh, how i love You. Thank You for creating Rain.

On a side not, has our acts of service been out of duty or devotion?

hmmm.....

God speaks.

There's no such thing as a time period in your life being the prime of your life when God is in the picture.

Everyday is the 'prime of our life' when we're living for God.

Philippians 3:10 'that i may know Him and the power of His resurrection, and the fellowship of His sufferings, being conformed to His death'

Wow.

That is the goal of a Christian's life. In all things, whether through joy or through suffering, we may know Christ.

Our security should be based upon our relationship with Christ.

Another lesson learnt

I learnt AGAIN today that i sometimes mix my passion and responsibilities up and i end up not-being-myself.

I have this theory that the Number one Disease that is affecting Mankind today is not AIDS but Insecurity. What say you?

I struggle with that A LOT, you know, "Am i good enough?Did i say something wrong?Did i not say enough?" type of questions. I am sure you go through your fair share of i-need-to-prove-to-people-that-i-am-secure-phase and end up being all pretentious.

But i have realized or at least for myself is that it all stems out from me being so conscious of what people think of me. People-conscious. It consumes me that i end up not being myself sometimes. I crave for assurance from men but i need to change that to assurance from God.

1 Peter 2:9 But you are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, His own special people, that you may proclaim the praises of Him who called you out of darkness into His marvelous light.

"that we may proclaim praises to Him." WoW

self-explanatory.

I realized also we find things to be our crutch sometimes. We try to draw our security from others or even ourself. When will we ever learn to have "confidence in Christ" and not ourself.

Our faith is one which is unseen.

Hebrews 11:1 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

When will we ever learn to be secure in Christ and not ourself.

2 Corinthians 5:7 For we walk by faith, not by sight.

Time to get rolling and straightening our lives up with Him above.

Christ is coming soon. Are you ready to meet Him The King of Kings?

Gasp!

2 more months!!WOOHOO. I just realised that in about 60ish days time, i will be home.

"A-neh, lu pigi buat untuk saya super garing roti canai, sudah 9 bulan tak makan."

"Dei, nasi lemak kasi lebih sambal LA."

"Aunty-ah, kuei peng mai kut."

"Uncle-ah, pan mi kon-no eh, ai kei liau."

"Boss, tambah nasi boss."

"Makcik, goreng pisang kasi goreng lama lama, lagi shiok."

"...lu panggil ini pedas ah??kasi lagi pedas la...."

"aiyo, pumpkin rice again ah???" (hahaha, this time i will finish the whole pot, mummy)

Pure bliss.

I can't wait to use my tak-boleh-harap language skills again. I can't wait to get eat like crazy and go to the toilet like crazy...hehehehe.
(ps..josh, wait for me, im coming..hahaha..esso-mamak, here we come!!!)

In my excitement, i'm reminded of God telling me so forcefully in the beginning of the year about where 'home' really is.

I am reaching 'home'.