Pit stop

Just taking a break from the books. Finals soon. Crazy. Ethics 400 at 2pm on 14th of April and Applied Pharmacotherapeutics at 10am on 16th of April. I was just thinking of what to do to celebrate my 21st birthday. I've shortlisted them to these:

-bungee jump
-sky diving
-try skiing and experiencing snow (very unlikely considering my busted knee)
-climb Harbour Bridge in Sydney (i've been wanting to for YEARS..mum would remember, haha)
-get a new Anterior Cruciate Ligament (most likely) and wait another 10 or so months before i can play competitive soccer. Bummer... as if i've not waited long enough.

Sigh. I feel so crappy to be limited to what i can do and what i can't. I'm hitting 21, going to reach my pinnacle (energy wise) and i can't 'be all i can be'. Then again, the optimists would say, "try other avenues mate!"

Oh well, no harm trying :) Anybody up for some reading and writing? haha. Maybe it's time to pursue photography again. I stopped that for awhile as i had too much things on my plate.

I was just reminded that come tomorrow, it would be 5 yrs since She left us. I won't hide it. I miss Ah Mah. I still remember that day, in the hospital when Mum told me, "She's in heaven already." I just sat down in a corner sobbing away. There are times when i sit down and think, "I wonder how would Ah Mah feel if she was around . . . . . " or "wouldn't it be good if Ah Ma was here?" If there's one thing i really treasure, it would be family. When the Aussie cousins were back and we had so much fun doing all kinds of things, in my heart, i was thinking, "if only She was here, She could join in the fun too." She was a real pillar of strength for my family. She really left a gap when she returned home to Our Lord.

Being the naughty kid i was when i was younger, i remeber always just calling her, 'Ahma' and not my 'Ahkong' as well, haha, he can be sometimes very 'scary'.
I remember the time also when she sat me down and thought me how to scrub the drains at her place. She would sit down on her stool and i would just squat as i was younger and the both of us would use this funny scrub thing and just scrub the drains. Ever since then, i really looked forward to scrubbing drains at her place for no particular reason. I also remember the times when she would checked me bum bum for worms. Yes, i was a dirty little fellow. I also remember that day when she had to cleaned Ah Ben's bottom coz he poo poo in his pants. I also remember the day when i made my sister cry and she 'hit' me to show my sister that justice was sought but Ah Mah actually just gently touched me. I remember the countless days when she cooked all kinds of yummy food for us, especially mee hun kueh as she would let me pick the dough. I always looked forward to her cooking. And how can i forget the countless milos that she has made for me. Among my siblings, i am grateful to have known This Amazing Lady the longest obviously due to me being the oldest but i'm sure they would have their own words about Her.

I know She'd be proud of us. I know I am.

I just realised that this post contained traces of 2 of the many impactful incidences in my life. Both involving losses. Both that i still question, 'Why, Lord, Why?'

Pardon me, i need to retreat to my corner.

Humbling

Matthew 15
1Then some Pharisees and teachers of the law came to Jesus from Jerusalem and asked, 2"Why do your disciples break the tradition of the elders? They don't wash their hands before they eat!"

We always think we're better than someone. It's inevitable. The proud side of us never fail to express itself. At the the foot at my Saviour's cross, i was challenged to lay my pride down again and crucify it to the cross. I was asked to finally give myself up and say, "It's all You." I have been faced with disappointments in my life again and am challenged to see it from a different perspective now. Of not being always so gloomy about circumstances but to give Him praise in ALL THINGS.

I find myself so easily finding faults in people but i fail to see the 'huge plank' in my life.

God is indeed 'mighty to save.'

What a day

I cracked an egg while grocery shopping today.


And the butcher gave us an extra 'chicken wing' when i bought all chicken leg fillet. It's funny coz Deb G always had free chicken wings when she gets a food from some stall in the food court and i would ask her how she get's it.

On a more serious note, I was so close going for my first ever job interview. Attended a careers expo at the Adelaide Convention Centre yesterday and stumbled upon officials from the National Health Dept of Singapore. They were recruiting people from Allied Health disciplines and well, one thing led to another and next thing you know, i signed up for an interview with the chief pharmacist of National University Hospital of Singapore. They said they were going to call to arrange the time and all. There i was eagerly waiting for that precious phone call. It didn't come.

When i checked my inbox in the evening, there was an email from them saying that my interview was at 2.45 pm. It was 3.45 pm already.

haha.

God speaks?

Oh well. back to podcasting. hehe

Connected. . . finally

After what seems like ages, i finally have internet at home. What an achievement. Haha.
But then again, it couldn't come at a better time.

Assessments coming up. How exciting. LOL. Medication management test tomorrow. Pharmacy practise test on Wednesday. Ethics paper on 14 April and Applied Pharmacotherapeutics 400 on 16 April.

The past few weeks seems to have just past by just like that. crrrraaazzzzzyyyyy.

On a lighter note, i have allowed myself to indulge in some Podcasting. Haha. It's been radical. You know you're living in the 21st century when you're listening to sermons and Bible audios through podcasting and lectures through lecture audios.

How amazing it is to know that God is moving and working.

Wow.

Heatwave

We've been having the high 30's for the past few days, already hit 40's at some areas of Adelaide.
Yes, it's celcius and it's supposed to be autumn now. How interesting.

Busy busy busy. Workload piling up. New sem, new year, new opportunities, new beginnings.
Wait, it's already March. Haha. Well, better late than never. Finals coming up. Mark down April 14 and 16.

Shockalingam

Missing items

I'm holding on to hope.

I've realised that i'm missing certain items and i do hope they find their way back to me.

Item #1 Multi socket adaptor
Item#2 Magical slow cooker-My mum bought it for me.
Item#3 A navy greyish collar t-shirt that my aunt got me-it has like a small lil birdy logo on
the left side of the chest.

So please, if anyone knows where is it. Pls let me know. I really really want them back.

Thank you.

Funny thing is, i wake up everyday remembering things that i'm missing. I won't be surprised if i've got a box of things somewhere out there. Sobs sobs.

Temperature's rising. . . .literally. My feet and hands have never been so sweaty. Yucks.

Haha.

Thoughts

Just watched 'Remember the titans' again with the boys. Got me thinking. I have been blessed with the opportunity to watch some good movies recently. 'A Beautiful Mind' gave so many insights to what true love is and the importance of finding the right one. 'Facing the Giants' reminded us of how we should never ever NOT trust Him. And now, 'Titans' brought home another lesson.

It's a movie that i will never ever get sick of watching. I've watched it a couple of times already.

One of the characters Gerry Bertier(i googled his name) was involved in a car accident and was paralyzed from the waist down. He went on to become a Paralympic champion. I saw some similarities there.

What hit me was how he was thinking about paralympics from his hospital bed already. He moved on from his injury and didn't dwell on what had happened.

I won't lie. I still ask God today why.

I wish i could turned back time and well avoid that injury.

Football now seems to be an illusive dream. Not only football, competitive plays or just running it out and jumping around.

Should i still cling on to a Hope or learn to move on?

I wonder. .