A change in perception

Some say autumn is a time of emo-ness. I can't help but agree more. Leaves falling down, dark

clouds, leaves changing colour . . the works. And all you want to do is just cuddle up in bed. 

It can be really draining if i allow the weather to dictate my emotions. It's just so unpredictable, the weather. And so, a change in perception is needed. :)

We kickstarted GYM (GuY's Ministry) in OCF last Saturday. Haha. Thank God for birth-ing this ministry. Hopefully, it will be the start of great things to come. Actually, i know it is going to be the start of great things to come. 

The sister's from AU did such an AMAZING job in surprising us with cupcakes, cookies and buns and lil exquisite-looking gourmet thing-y. It was wrapped so nicely. Regretted not taking more pictures. We had cinnamon buns that really tasted like they were from that Cinnabon (or something like that name) from home too. Credit to the brothers also in stepping up in preparing lunch for us too. If you are reading this and i missed the chance to thank you, well, THANK YOU!!!!! I mean, personally, seeing sister and brothers coming together supporting one another, it really lifted my spirits up after such a long and tiring week. But i must admit, we guys still need some work in supporting our fellow sisters still. We'll get there though. hehe. I must say that we have improved though.

Seeing the guys praying for one another and the sisters surprising us, it almost made me teared. Haha. The unity of the body of Christ is something which should never be taken for granted. And I am reminded again that Christ is the one that holds us together and unites us.

beeeaaaaauuuuttiiiful 

:)

What defines me

Psalm 37:4 Delight yourself also in the LORD, and He shall give you the desires of your heart.

The word 'also' reminds me to read the verse before.

Psalm 37:3 Trust in the LORD, and do good; Dwell in the land, and feed on His faithfulness.

It made me read the title of the Psalm again.

'The Heritage of the Righteous and the Calamity of the Wicked.'

Psalm 36:7b How precious is Your lovingkindess, O God!

In the midst of my conversations with a couple of my friends, i was asked, 'Is there anything more to your life?' Apart from God, family and friends. I'm afraid no. Haha. A rather boring person i am? LOL. Well, i will let you be the judge but i know of some who would say otherwise. 

It was a good day yesterday. Got a text from my sister, 'Hello ko, how was your paper today?' That brought the widest grin to my mouth. Just in the morning before, He reminded me of the verse in Psalm 37:4

Beautiful.

Just want to say a big thanks to all the big che ches i've never had and mates and brothers and sisters in Christ around the world who have been praying and will continue praying with me. Apart from the excitement that Jesus is walking with me in this journey, the fact that I have you walking alongside me also just makes me want to jump around in joy.

much love and thanks,

Jinnie Babe. 

haha

1 down, 1 to go

The advantage of being physically alone is that you can spend more time spiritually with Him. This morning was a special. While talking to Him, sometimes so much so that i fail to listen but this morning, thankfully I listened, i was reminded again of the Cross.

Mark 2: 9 Which is easier, to say that to the paralytic, 'Your sins are forgiven you,' or to say, 'Arise, take up your bed and walk?'

Thank You.

Done with ethics. AP looms.

Silence

If I'm not mistaken, this would be the first night i'll be all alone. Most of the 'kakis' went off for ECamp, my heart's there too but i'm forcing it to be HERE. EXAMS approaching. RAWR!!! haha

It's interesting be all alone (you tend to talk to yourself a lot) but i was reminded I'm not. I've got a Housemate that's everywhere and man, i've loving life having Him by my side. I can't imagine what life would be without Him. Plus, i don't really have to talk to myself now. :)

Decided to cook myself a good meal for dinner.

Haha. Very first attempt at making Nohmaikai (actually, was just going to cook some fried dark rice, recipe from housemate LeeLihWei but ended up becoming 'nohmaikai' probably due to too much water). 

Pit stop

Just taking a break from the books. Finals soon. Crazy. Ethics 400 at 2pm on 14th of April and Applied Pharmacotherapeutics at 10am on 16th of April. I was just thinking of what to do to celebrate my 21st birthday. I've shortlisted them to these:

-bungee jump
-sky diving
-try skiing and experiencing snow (very unlikely considering my busted knee)
-climb Harbour Bridge in Sydney (i've been wanting to for YEARS..mum would remember, haha)
-get a new Anterior Cruciate Ligament (most likely) and wait another 10 or so months before i can play competitive soccer. Bummer... as if i've not waited long enough.

Sigh. I feel so crappy to be limited to what i can do and what i can't. I'm hitting 21, going to reach my pinnacle (energy wise) and i can't 'be all i can be'. Then again, the optimists would say, "try other avenues mate!"

Oh well, no harm trying :) Anybody up for some reading and writing? haha. Maybe it's time to pursue photography again. I stopped that for awhile as i had too much things on my plate.

I was just reminded that come tomorrow, it would be 5 yrs since She left us. I won't hide it. I miss Ah Mah. I still remember that day, in the hospital when Mum told me, "She's in heaven already." I just sat down in a corner sobbing away. There are times when i sit down and think, "I wonder how would Ah Mah feel if she was around . . . . . " or "wouldn't it be good if Ah Ma was here?" If there's one thing i really treasure, it would be family. When the Aussie cousins were back and we had so much fun doing all kinds of things, in my heart, i was thinking, "if only She was here, She could join in the fun too." She was a real pillar of strength for my family. She really left a gap when she returned home to Our Lord.

Being the naughty kid i was when i was younger, i remeber always just calling her, 'Ahma' and not my 'Ahkong' as well, haha, he can be sometimes very 'scary'.
I remember the time also when she sat me down and thought me how to scrub the drains at her place. She would sit down on her stool and i would just squat as i was younger and the both of us would use this funny scrub thing and just scrub the drains. Ever since then, i really looked forward to scrubbing drains at her place for no particular reason. I also remember the times when she would checked me bum bum for worms. Yes, i was a dirty little fellow. I also remember that day when she had to cleaned Ah Ben's bottom coz he poo poo in his pants. I also remember the day when i made my sister cry and she 'hit' me to show my sister that justice was sought but Ah Mah actually just gently touched me. I remember the countless days when she cooked all kinds of yummy food for us, especially mee hun kueh as she would let me pick the dough. I always looked forward to her cooking. And how can i forget the countless milos that she has made for me. Among my siblings, i am grateful to have known This Amazing Lady the longest obviously due to me being the oldest but i'm sure they would have their own words about Her.

I know She'd be proud of us. I know I am.

I just realised that this post contained traces of 2 of the many impactful incidences in my life. Both involving losses. Both that i still question, 'Why, Lord, Why?'

Pardon me, i need to retreat to my corner.

Humbling

Matthew 15
1Then some Pharisees and teachers of the law came to Jesus from Jerusalem and asked, 2"Why do your disciples break the tradition of the elders? They don't wash their hands before they eat!"

We always think we're better than someone. It's inevitable. The proud side of us never fail to express itself. At the the foot at my Saviour's cross, i was challenged to lay my pride down again and crucify it to the cross. I was asked to finally give myself up and say, "It's all You." I have been faced with disappointments in my life again and am challenged to see it from a different perspective now. Of not being always so gloomy about circumstances but to give Him praise in ALL THINGS.

I find myself so easily finding faults in people but i fail to see the 'huge plank' in my life.

God is indeed 'mighty to save.'