Random Ramblings

Just took some photos and put them all up (not according to order),

Received a very interesting card from Adelaide. Thanks :) It really made my day.

Lil deco's in the hall at home.


Where I sometimes spend precious moments with Him in the hall at home.

Attended Bukit Bintang Old Boys Dinner.

Char siew pau and No mai kai

Guess what i found? They sell Bundaberg Ginger beer here for Rm 8.50. One of the 'pearls' that i discovered in Adelaide.

I'm going to wear you soon!!

The new fish pond

Sexy scars.

How do you say ligament in cantonese? Lee-Gah-Man?!?!!??!

Being a 'handicap' has privilleges. It's been an interesting journey moving around in crutches. You begin to realise that hey, not all shopping malls are equipped with disability-friendly facilities. Like for example, how are you going to open a toilet door when both your hands are on the crutches. Mind you, toilet doors are equipped with those auto swivel thing at the joint where it 'closes' itself when open. Go try. haha. Not many are considerate of your condition too. Got bumped around the other day. Really was annoyed. Thankfully, i was able to 'not fall'. Interesting enough, the mamak fellas and aunties and uncles at kopitiam and not to forget burmese workers in restaurant are more understanding of my situation compared to the common folk. Oh well, life goes on.. :)

Chong Wei lost. I guessed Malaysians were really looking to him to bring some joy in times of political stife and uncertainties. Almost everyday in the newspaper, there are articles reporting, Anti-Corruption Agency arrested so and so....Public dissatisfaction...and so on. A silver's still something to celebrate for and credit to him for going against the entire stadium of crazily LOUD people.

I'm beginning to move around at home without crutches already but still need one when i move long distance. And long distance means walking to shopping mall entrance from carpark. haha

I miss football. I miss leading my brothers in defending the goal. One of my favourite position in the field was either being the defensive midfielder or the sweeper. Breaking up attacking plays of the opposing team and starting our own attacking plays. Tactial stuffs. If you recall, i used to have my own footie team and we would go around challenging team and yours truly would of course be the one leading. Man, i dont know why but i have a sudden respect for Rio Ferdinand. The way he plays and leads. 11 more months. ish ish.

Going back to Adelaide on the 3rd of Sept and will arrive on the 4th.

At physio

Guess where am I at now? haha.

I am currently in the middle of my physiotherapy session. How cool is that? They have free wireless internet at this place and i told myself, one day, i'm gonna bring my lappie and look cool over here. Today's the day. haha.

Not so cool anymore when you're in pain. I'm on this machine that bends your knee. I have been stuck around the 80 to 120 range the past few days. It hurts like crazy when its around 110ish. Happens coz of muscle stiffness. Ahh..110, 115.....aaaaaaaaa....cant scream in public. . . . ... ... .....

haha..cheap thrills that excites me. shiok sendiri.

I'm beginning to understand that this trip back home is purely for my leg and anything else that i get are bonuses. Bye bye pulau perhentian or redang or langkawi. I was really hoping for the opportunity to go for a short trip at one of the islands. Oh well....nasi kandar at kayu tonight.
:)

Lifesong

[Amazing grace currently being played in the backgroud]

I thank God for movies like 'Amazing Grace'. I finally had the opportunity to watch the movie after wanting to watch it for oh-so-long but never really had the chance and time.

William Wilberforce or Wilby as mentioned by his wife in the movie interests me. To have something you are so passionate about and to give your whole life up for it is something very admirable and i shudder at the thought that He may do that with me too. Sometimes, i feel like i have 'closed the door' on Him to put desires in my heart for fear that it will consume me.

Interestingly enough, i just had a conversation with the Joker in Perth about our purposes on Earth. I know we are called to 'go forth and multiply', to 'go make disciples of all nations', to glorify God and to enjoy Him forever etc. We were talking more specifics.

Like being called to fight the oppression of human beings or something to that effect, or being a father (i've come to see that there's a calling in that too), etc.

Let's see what happens.

Isaiah 26:8 Yes, LORD, walking in the way of your laws, we wait for you;
your name and renown are the desires of our hearts.
9a My soul yearns for you in the night; in the morning my spirit longs for you.
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Did i mention how much i love hymns? To come up with lines like, 'i was once blind but now i see' when one is blind. Wow. (from the original Amazing Grace by John Newton, go wiki him.hehe) Still, credit to Chris Tomlin for coming up with a remake of 'Amazing Grace' but there's always a financial side when songwriters today come up with songs. Don't get me wrong, i like Chris T and the stuffs that he has come up with. I believe He is also using people like him for His purposes.

I just love songs written from the heart, purely from one's individual life experiences with God and with no financial incentives and all that sorts.

I was talking to mum about it. Hymns, in general, will appeal to people with more life experiences as they have come to appreciation of what the authors really meant when they wrote what they wrote and it just gives more depth when singing it. Simply because, they understand and may have also gone through similar life experiences.

Pampered jokers like me, well, we need people like Chris T to come up remake of old hymns to appeal to our taste musically and hopefully, when 'caught' by the song, we will do our own search and appreciate the words used and thoughts suggested AND...

Worship Him.

:)

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Ended up not going for Passion KL. I gave my ticket away. First was Hillsongs, now this. haha. Oh well...
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Praise God. I can walk on one crutch now and have even tried limping around the house without crutches. I say limping as i still can't fully bend the knee so when without the crutch, i look like i'm hobbling or limping around. Bruises are also slowly disappearing away too. And yes, i hit 90 degrees already, did 100 actually yesterday :) Achieved my target to only use one crutch by this week. For the coming week, my target would be to hit the gyms. Let's see. Been pushing myself like crazy in physios.

3.33am

Its 3.33 am and i'm awake. Been having trouble sleeping the past few days. Would only get a couple of hours sleep each night and they're not like like sleep sleep. Its like sleep, wake up, sleep, wake up, sleep, wake up.

One of the causative factors would be them muscle aches and discomfort all over my leg. Ish.

Stitches came off today. Something to be grateful for :)

Pushing on

In light of my present sufferings, i am reminded of the Cross..yet again. I was grimacing in pain the other day as some machine was forcing my knees to bend and boy, do they hurt and i remembered the cross and what kind of pains He went through. It cannot be compared of course. It must have been incredibly painful for Him.

The picture above is the latest one on how my leg looks like. Swellings decreased already. Its much lighter now and im beginning to regain some strength there. Bruisings all over are from crazy physiotherapists who enjoy making you suffer.

haha.

It's from the excess bleeding from the op. But yea, these physiotherapists are real jokers man. They keep going, 'come on, push, push' or 'Today, doctor gave me license to make you suffer, muahahaha.' And us patients would be laughing at one another when one of us go through some excruciating exercises not knowing we are next. I was a victim.

I managed to hit 80 degrees yesterday without a machine. hehehe. so proud of myself. Then some aunty shouted from behind, 'ah boy ah...im already doing 70 and i just had my op couple days ago.'

potong stim man.

Pushing on today, my goal for the week, to rid of one crutch.

Did i mention, my new best friends are my crutches and they super cool looking brace i have to wear everytime i 'walk'. haha. And my new enemy is that stocking that i have to wear everyday to compress my veins and arteries to avoid DVT. They're soooo uncomfortable.

I am so grateful for the people around me. They have been so helpful. Bringing breakfast to bed for me, driving me around, helping me to shower...the list is endless.

:)

Off to physio. See ya. Gonna try 90 today.

Down days

I realised that there's going to be some up days and down days through this hard period of having only one mobile leg. Yesterday was a 'down' day and boy, was it 'down'.

sigh.

gotta find some mechanism to cheer me up when i hit rock bottom.

physio today was good. yay for me, i reached 40 degrees on my knee bends on the busted leg. haha. the old aunties and uncles are competing with one another. One of them's on 90 degrees already.

haha :)

Waasssaaapppp

Pictures, in no particular order (not for the faint hearted, you have been warned :p)

Discharged on Sunday Afternoon. Had church with Father, Son and Holy Spirit on Hospital Bed :)

Right after the op, i was 'high' on some feel good drug.

Hospital jokers gave me frisbee as a free gift to motivate me. haha

Before ..

Hellllllooooooo world...

It has been an interesting week so far. Came back home to Klg on Tues night (15th of July), saw Doc on Wed, and had my first ever surgery on Friday which lasted for 4 hours. Thank God it went well. That was the easy part. haha. Hard part is the rehab and all the exercises which i must adhere to and also NO GAMES FOR 1 year. (maybe 9 months..hehe).

The staff was extremely professional. From the questions they asked to the way they handled themselves, i must say i was very impressed. Then again, the whole thing costs a bomb. They should be professional. haha.

Some interesting stories that i will not forget.

1. In the OT, i was the only male apart from the Doc who was operating and some other guy who helped carry me onto the table and all. So to distract my mind (the ladies could all see that i was nervous and all), they cracked random jokes like whtr i was attached or not and that most of the ladies there were single. But yea, they did their best to make sure i did not think about what was to come. Before i knew it, i heard someone say, 'injection coming in' and i felt the most excruciating pain on my back. I opted for spinal anaesthesia so that meant injection to the back. Best part was, the same voice then said, 'ooppss, i missed'. haha. Not her fault anyway, i was moving and all but the second one was straight on the spot. Right now, ive got 2 bruises on my back. Them jokers..haha. They pumped some drug into me and next thing i know, i was asleep. Mind was awake though, i could hear what they were talking but just could not respond. I was like in some semiconscious state.

And i think they injected some drug after the op to wake me up coz i woke up the moment i was wheeled into my room. Boy, was i hyper. They gave me some feel good drug too and i was literally 'high'. Some patients like that particular drug as it gives the same effect as alcohol minus the side effects. LOL. Was talking non stop to everyone and ate like a pig. I was thinking..that wasnt too bad. Few hours later, when the drug effects wore off and the anaesthesia lost its effect..haha..happy chinese new year man...pain like crazy....

2. Another incident, the morning after the op, i was taking a shower in the hospital toilet and i accidentally dropped my crutches. One of the nurse came running into the toilet to see whether i was alright. Yes, she saw me nude. haha. I was also wearing them backless gowns and i totally forgotten about it. Once when i was walking to the toilet, i was baring my bum bum to the whole ward. I had my disposable undies on of course but they had holes..i didnt realise until a nurse came n hold the gown for me at the back.

3. I got my leg hairs on my right leg shaved off.

yes, you must be laughing now. haha

On a serious note, i thank God for the people around me. I'm really limited in what i can do now. Getting into a car takes a llooonggg time. Going to toilet and getting in and out of bed leaves me breathless. God still provides. Like on Sunday, we didnt know how i was going to be transported home but thank God, a church uncle just came and offer his help with his van.

And really, this whole thing about the body of Christ and how one part affects the other. Its so true man. My knee affects my entire being now. It's uber inflamed now, all swollen up and it affects my mood and how i feel. Can be a bit depressing sometimes when you have to rely on people to help you even with the simplest stuff. And the pain....mum calls me big baby now oh well..hahha. Low threshold

And was reading P. Yancey's book on prayer and it described prayer as a total disregard of oneself and full dependance on God. Being in this condition that i am, I'm beginning to understand what it means to fully depend on Him.

Met new friends during physio today and suddenly had a fear. At 21, I'm having this already. If i dont look after it properly, whats going to happen when i hit 50.

Sigh.