Thoughts

Just watched 'Remember the titans' again with the boys. Got me thinking. I have been blessed with the opportunity to watch some good movies recently. 'A Beautiful Mind' gave so many insights to what true love is and the importance of finding the right one. 'Facing the Giants' reminded us of how we should never ever NOT trust Him. And now, 'Titans' brought home another lesson.

It's a movie that i will never ever get sick of watching. I've watched it a couple of times already.

One of the characters Gerry Bertier(i googled his name) was involved in a car accident and was paralyzed from the waist down. He went on to become a Paralympic champion. I saw some similarities there.

What hit me was how he was thinking about paralympics from his hospital bed already. He moved on from his injury and didn't dwell on what had happened.

I won't lie. I still ask God today why.

I wish i could turned back time and well avoid that injury.

Football now seems to be an illusive dream. Not only football, competitive plays or just running it out and jumping around.

Should i still cling on to a Hope or learn to move on?

I wonder. .

Denial?

I am a final year pharmacy student? Wow. I just realised that today.

How interesting.

I am totally not prepared yet but then again, when are we really prepared? hmm. . .i think i'm too young to enter the workforce. I reckon my maturity haven't caught up with all them working people yet.

I know some people are going to tell me, 'But, hey, look, there are ppl who are younger than you are already into all this adult-y stuffs.' But hey, that's them and i'm me.

I dream a lot. Mum says i like to build castles in the air. I like to sometimes imagine myself 5 years down the road. Mind you, it dosen't mean that i have high ambitions. My dream is 2-fold, to play football again, hopefully soon (before this, it was to play for Man Utd) and to marry a rich wife and be a house husband.
Yea, ppl make fun of me sometimes. Haha, who dosent? Medical people say that the first one can be striked off already. I just tell them, 'Well, my God is bigger than that.' He can heal me, the question is whether its His will or not.

All this talk about PR and where to work and stuffs. Sighs, why cant live be much easier than this? haha. Then again, do i really want to do this druggie stuff all my live? Live's gotta be more than that. Oh wait, there is. *grins*

I'm calling Sir Alex Ferguson now.

LOL.

What i really would like to see is a the realization among people that our lives are not our own, we belong to Someone greater. Now, that, my friend, that is something worth fighting for and looking forward to.

Happiness

God is good. The twin has her own office. (Oh ya, i just met another twin too.LOL) The brother got funky shoes (just see the chatterbox, ku jeles giler). Mr Sexay Leong is having a blast. It just rained (ooo..i love the freshness it brings after) during Summer too, totally unexpected. I see a house coming too. Things are beginning to look up after being all gloomy.

Just watched a movie, 'Facing the giants.' It was good. One of the characters talked about how it's easy to lead when we're strong and it's really when we're tired, broken down and discouraged when true leadership is shown.

I wonder. . . .

Random thoughts

Random thought 1:
I still have got no place to call my own YET. But i trust in Him who will provide my needs. Currently, i'm putting up with 2 very dear brothers (there was an additional one for a week) and i must say, it has been a very meaningful time with them. I've learnt so much not only from them but from Him.

Random thought 2:
I am thankful for parents and friends who will sit next to me in lectures.LOL

Random thought 3:
God, in His mercy has brought me this far. Really, it was by His mercy. All Him, not me. It's too soon for me to be known as a final year student. Man, i don't even look the part. How am i going to be the part? Nevertheless, He brought me here and He will bring me through this.

Random thought 4:
I told my parents that i will come try to come back this year with a degree and a . . . . . . .

Random thought 5:
The weather is mad. It's supposed to be summer but we all need our jackets coz its cold.

Let's see what happens. :)

HaHa.

One more day. .

I am the only one to blame for this
Somehow it all ends up the same
Soaring on the wings of selfish pride
I flew too high and like Icharus I collide


With a world I try so hard to leave behind
To rid myself of all but love, to give and die


To turn away and not become
Another nail to pierce the skin of one who loves
More deeply than the oceans, more abundant than the tears
Of a world embracing every heartache

Can I be the one to sacrifice
Or grip the spear and watch the blood and water flow

Take my world a - part
          (To  need you)
I am on my knees
    (To love you)
Take my world a - part     
Broken on my knees

All said and done I stand alone
Amongst remains of a life I should not own
It takes all I am to believe
In the mercy that covers me


I still find relevance to this song. It's going to be one of my old time fav's 20 years down the road.
Really, I have no one else to blame but myself. I don't even know what to do now. Every word of that song
seems to echo my emotions right now.

Mercy.

Back in SA

Arrived safely on the 9th am. I left Adelaide on the 9th of Dec and came back here on the 9th of Feb. How amusing. :)

This is going to be a very interesting year.

Let's wait together and see what happens.

God.

Urgh

Its past 4 in the morning and i can't sleep. I've been up since 3 and i only went to bed at 1.

Of all the days in the year, why have a stiff neck now? It hurts so badly everytime i move.

The agony. .

Holidays..what holidays?

A couple more days and i'm back to where Satay is not meat on a stick served with good ol kacang kari and where dirty hawker restaurants are a rare sight. It would be an overstatement if i said that i was dreading the day but then again, i'm not exactly looking forward to what awaits me there.

A very good 'little' friend :) with a huge heart did ask whether did i manage to do all that i wanted to during this holiday. I answered her no. I never had a list of things to do in the first place, i just had a rough idea of what i wanted to do during the holiday. Be pampered !! and pampered i was. Probably even more. LOL

But yea, this holiday has been a rather interesting one. I've learned so much of myself, grew so much, experienced so much, think much, said much, didn't do much but loved much. Never really had the chance to spend countless hours in front of the tele though, something which i really really wanted to do.

To my family who are not blood related, i really wanted to spend more time with you guys and i know i did not at all. I knew this was coming so that's why i made sure that i remembered every second that i had with you. From sitting next to you in church all the way to just a brief exchange of words when we were rushing to somewhere. I treasured those moments. If God allows, i hope we'll have more time together in the future.

I've learnt also to see the endless opportunities that are before me and how i've been so ignorant of them.

It's time to start licking the ice-cream before it melts.


Good ol buddy said 2008 is going to be a good year for the 2 of us. (Nope, he's not a fortune teller.) I said, 'sure or nottt????' he says, 'just wait and see'
For me, every year brings more drama than the year before so i'm not expecting any less. It's the year i'm turning 21 but then again, 21 is just a number.

I've been meditating on Proverbs 3:3-4 and Hosea 6:6 (and trying to memorize it, LOL)

Go have a read if you want.